求学生涯将近终点。。

昨天是最后一堂课了。接下来的日子将会更加繁忙，要完成多份 assignments，还要准备考试。昨天大家都兴致勃勃，各自带着相机，与同学及 lecturers 东拍拍，西拍拍，不亦乐乎！大家的心情好像突然变得高昂了。。尤其是大家昨天还刚交了2份 assignments，真的是很变态一下，assignments 一份一份排着队来等着我们，每隔几天又是另一个 deadline，大家真的是忙到无法形容，面容憔悴，披头散发，大家的书桌好像刚打完仗一样。无可置信的是，我们竟然能在短短3个月内完成120个学分 （credit hours)。我们 mass communications 学生是最棒的，我们是超人！！哈哈，因为其他的 course 才 claim 那么一点点 credit hours，难怪他们这么得空！！

当然，昨天的心情还参杂了一点点的感触。。哭 T.T 求学生涯就这样慢慢地走向终点了。。甫出娘胎，我们的第一任务就是学业。。学业。。不知不觉从幼儿园读到大学也有将近20年的光景，好漫长的路啊。。人生中的一部分已经花在读书了。。维持着“学生”的身份已有20年了。。不久的将来，“学生”的名词不再属于我，不能再用“学生证”享受优惠了。。呵呵。。。感触多多。。

结束求学生涯，又爱又恨，又喜又悲。。情绪无以言喻。。踏出校园，同时也意味着步入职场。。那是怎么样的一个未来？无人知，无人晓。。只好继续向前迈进，自我探索，自我增值，自我加分。。新的旅程，新的开始，新的挑战，新的希望。。一切都是新的。。一切又要从零开始。。

同学们将在这场20年的晚宴盛会里渐渐离席，真的是“天下无不散之宴席”啊。。不知道以后能不能像现在那样时常聚在一起，嘻嘻哈哈，说说笑笑，疯疯癫癫。。还是若干年后，大家都因为工作繁忙，聚少离多，渐渐淡忘大家？很多人都说毕业后，大家都会变，友情也会变，但是我希望这个“变”，是变得更好，而不是变得更坏或更淡。。一起加油吧。。

大家将要完成学业了，很多人似乎患上了毕业生惯有的情绪病 -- “职场恐惧症”。。可能是即将迈入不一样的旅程，心情还需要时间做些调适吧。。

希望大家顺顺利利过完仅剩的学习生涯，勇敢迈向未来。。冲啊。。！！

Sensational Eclairs

最近爱上了很 sensational 的 eclair。喜欢里面的 creamy 馅儿，choc topping 反而还好而已。外皮松松，口感很好，一口咬下去，可以感觉到 creamy 的馅儿一股脑地溜进嘴里，至高的味蕾享受充满整个口腔。从冰箱里刚拿出来时，整个 eclair 冰冰的，冰冻的感觉冻醒了我因繁重的功课而渐渐发麻的脑细胞。冰冰的 cream 在嘴里边打转时，顿时让人精神振奋。。呵呵。。尤其是当嘴巴还来不及装下那一直涌出来的 cream 时，那种满足的感觉真的是无以言喻。

糟了，我要控制我自己。。如何控制好呢？？如何？如何？控制。。控制。。>.< 美食是女人的头号大敌！！

友谊科学论 (Theory of Friendship and Science)

友谊，这个名词很“科学”（Science)。因为它可以是固体（Solid)，可以是液体(Liquid)，可以是气体(Gas)。该让它可去可从？何形何体？你可以掌控，你可以做主。友谊里面参杂了太多日常生活中的点点滴滴，就好比是科学名词里的“微分子”（Molecule)。微分子越多，形体就越浓缩（Concentrated)，越浓缩，就越靠近固体的形态。形成固体就变成坚固无比。所以说，朋友之间应该累积多一些生活点滴，巩固形体，变成固体。

然而，友谊不是单方面的东西。人与人之间的摩擦力（Friction)，可以让它增加动力（Force），动力增加得适当，可以让人冲锋陷阵，屡战屡胜，把共同的敌人打得节节败退。反之，动力太多，只会增加口角，互相抨击 (Crash)。这个时候最需要润滑剂（Lubricant）的出现，把摩擦力减到最低。什么是最佳的友谊润滑剂？互相谅解是最佳的友谊润滑剂。

做个假设（hypothesis), 润滑剂越少，摩擦力就越大，抨击力就越大，动力就越大，固体的微分子就越容易被打散。所以说，“友谊=固体”，这个论点是不成立的。友谊应该是多变的，不容易被捉摸的，有时有形，有时无体。“友谊=固体”这个论理（Theory），存在着很多变数（Variable），比如说：时间，地点，事故，感觉，甚至是不明事物，不明物体，或不明人物。

所以，友谊可以变幻无穷，有时是固体，有时是液体，有时是气体。友谊无所不在，可以救人于无形，亦可以伤人于无体。有时当缘分尽了，就无力挽回。若变成了闲人，那就学会噤若寒蝉吧！

偶尔，友谊就是需要加一点巧克力，甜它一下，对方才会喜滋滋的，大家的友情才会长久。
偶尔，友谊就是需要加一点酸醋，酸它一下，对方才会醒过来，大家才会彼此珍惜。
偶尔，友谊就是需要加一点苦瓜，苦它一下，对方才会自我反省，大家才会明白之间的误解。
偶尔，友谊就是需要加一点辣椒，辣它一下，对方才会改过自新，大家的友情才会更进一步。

这是我小小的友谊科学论，献丑了。。与大家共勉之。。^o^ 友谊万岁！！

冰心 - 《不为什么》

几天前，突然想起小学六年级的老师对我们一班懵懵懂懂的小学生谈起冰心这位著名作家的作品集，名为《不为什么》。若没有记错，冰心正是在那年去世的。1999年吧。。

那位老师对中文与文学颇有研究，说话时常咬文嚼字的，尤其注重汉语拼音与词汇运用，咬字清晰，说话铿锵有力，一字一句，句句都是头头是道，诗情画意的，有深度，有韵味，有意境。

自己对中文自小颇有兴趣，对这位老师当然是有说不上的敬佩。然而，她被校长堪称为老师中“精英中的精英”，特务是教导我们这班校方所谓“精英中的精英”班。初转校，新生到此陌生处，初来报到，父母让校方把我安排进所谓的“精英班”。当时，真的很压力，哭着来求学问的。那是地狱式的魔鬼训练，每位老师对我们来说都是不可冒犯的魔鬼，因而他们的面貌，我到现在还可以清晰地记得。那位级任老师（纪老师）曾经说过，我们当时会很讨厌她，但是以后我们会很感激她。是的，现在我时不时都会想起她对我们说过的这番话。是的，现在我很感激她！我们的学校也在当年因为UPSR考生成绩特别优越，被教育局荣升为“精英学校”，是老师们的功劳！

当所有UPSR考生都考完试，等待假期时，这位老师已经为我们准备升中学的教材，每天读诗歌、名句精华。。。对中文的热爱应该是那时慢慢被熏陶出来的吧？虽然之前已经蛮喜欢中文的说，可是老师的细心栽培也是不可磨灭的功劳 ^o^

想起冰心，就会想起这位老师。是她让我认识冰心这篇动人，又有意义的文集《不为什么》。我并没有看完这篇文集，却一直记得最有意思的一段，是这位老师从冰心的这篇文集引述的。这一段让我不曾忘怀。。与大家共勉之。。



有一次，幼小的我，忽然走到母亲面前，仰着脸问：“妈妈，你到底为什么爱我？”母亲放下针线，用她的面额，抵住我的前额，温柔的，不迟疑地说：“不为什么，——只因你是我的女儿！”
~~冰心~~


喜欢这一段文字，喜欢老师对中文的精神与文化，可以感觉到所有中文的精髓都融入她的生命里了。。

最后，要告诉全天下的华人，无论在何时何地，不要忘记自己的身份，要以华人为骄，要以中文为傲。。不要忘记中文，不要舍弃中文。。学好中文，不要让人耻笑自己是个“表里不一”的华人。。 华人，加油！=）

天与地

天空之蓝
唤醒了大地

海鸥与鸽子沿街飞舞
大自然风味的舞姿
唤醒了沉睡的纯洁心灵

大自然之美
无可替代
天地万物
来自大地
回归大地

就算终其一生风尘滚滚
也有尘埃落定的时候

最重要的是
终其一生
无怨
也无悔

微笑的飞翔

多少个夜里
囤积了无限的思绪
轻轻地敲叩着心灵
无声无息地
夺走了最原始的微笑

原来
有些时候
可以用无言来开始
可以用无语来结束
若是无言又无语
又何来今日的窘境

原来
微笑是可以被夺走的东西

留不住的
始终要学习放开
抓不住的
学习放它飞翔吧

飞吧
尽情地飞吧
带着微笑快乐地飞吧

Blog of complaint and Italianese Mix Vege Bak Kut Teh 意式杂菜肉骨茶

Just wake up from my bed. Commerce people keep making noise, walk here and there noisily, bring people in and out. And someone keep knocking others' doors. Keep knocking and knocking which makes people feel annoying. I guess the rhythm of knocking door will never be good to listen for everyone, making people feel stress and nervous and annoying. And why cannot walk nicely? Don't make elephant noise please!

Other friends also complained about Commerce or leave bad impression on them. Aiyo, Commerce, you guys sometimes really annoying! Somemore, you guys a bit anti-social one, not friendly one, see people also no respone one.. (maybe ego or shy??) And..and..everytime whether I want to use kitchen or not to use, you guys most of the time also using kitchen..Please be considerate, don't occupy the kitchen for several hours or even whole night!! Sometimes you guys 4 or 5 or 6pm start preparing, sometimes 7 or 8pm still cooking, somtimes 9pm still eating, sometimes 10 or 11pm still washing dishes, sometimes 11pm++ still doing homework and gather there (actually is more likely you guys were laughing there). Keep laughing, laughing LOUD sometimes. I guess you guys don't need a bedroom, can stay in the kitchen already, since you all like to occupy the kitchen for long hours.

Hostel management did a mistake, should not randomly place us into a same space, because previously already asked us to fill in the names who we want to live with, now putting and joining us randomly sounds silly. Is no point to ask us fill in the names then. Can you see the scenario? When the unit got 6 residents staying together. All coming from different courses and gangs. Different gang of people will bring own friends back to the unit and cook. If there is 3 gangs of people need to use the kitchen for few hours, how to cook and eat oo...?=.=" Maybe one gang eat dinner at 5pm, one gang at 8pm, one gang at 10pm? ish.. If there is the fixed gang cooking together, then should not have much problem. By the way, not living together with close friends can gain another benefit, which is privacy which I concern much.

Talking about the kitchen door, everytime I open the door, you guys will close it. Should let go the smell inside the kitchen space! and is easier to walk in! And my food always being relocated to some inner place which sometimes I have to play hide-and-seek with my food in the fridge. Oh my God!! And the rubbish...why place it and tie it in front of the basin!! Tie at another place la... is not convenient to put there! When you use basin, the rubbish will have "body contact" with you!! Common sense please!! And always didn't clean up after cooking, the stove so dirty, the onion, vege, noodles drop off and didn't clean it up..!! The fresh milk bottle cannot put in a horizontal way, the cap is leaking..!! Fridge will get dirty!! Last time relocated my fresh milk and put horizontal somemore. The rubbish please throw away everyday, placing few days with food waste will become smelly!! Sometimes even got a few bags of rubbish gather like a small mountain inside the kitchen. Faint!!

By the way, yesterday after back from outside already quite late, but suddenly all felt so hungry and had the feeling to eat bak kut teh. So, after taking bath, we gathered again at 11pm++ at friend's house and start cooking Italianese Mix Vege Bak Kut Teh (意式杂菜肉骨茶). Haha... I create the name for it. We didn't have proper ingredients for bak kut teh, so just throw and pour everything inside. Haha.. We was wondering whether it will taste weird. Luckily, it is still acceptable. Maybe is too hungry last night? Haha..We replaced pork with drumsticks, then got eggs, variety of vege, etc etc...and eat wif spaghetti....haha... aiyo, but we really think it was quite nice! The pot to cook food, especially the Barley drink.... was so..... aiyer, the paint in the pot already came out wei..!! horrifying.. I dare not drink much, so unhealthy, drink all those chemical inside.. I should take my own pot for you all to cook. Why don't buy a new one..??!! Haha..

Suddenly want to talk about the weather. Recently quite unstable. Sometimes hot and sunny and the sun was so glaring. Sometimes so cold and windy, colder than before. Recently daytime not so long as previous already. Early morning the sunrise is getting late than previous and in the evening the sunset is getting earlier than before. Maybe is preparing to enter Autumn season in September.

Cheers!! ^o^

朋友在英国被"lokap"

今天晚上大约七、八点的时候，发生了一起不可思议的事。两个朋友竟然在英国被警察"lokap"。我接到警察打来的电话时，那个西洋警察跟我讲了一堆东西，我都还没有心理准备。还以为自己听错了，朋友怎么会被警察扣留了？？！！我当时吓了一大跳，急忙通知两位朋友，要赶去警察局了解情况。

我们叫了一辆cab，我快步走回我的宿舍房间要换一条长裤，顺便拿我的包包。途中竟然遇到另外一班朋友，突然问我E在哪里。我当时也没时间想太多，而且他们也是E的好朋友，告诉他们也无妨，他们也有权利知道，有权利关心自己的朋友。何况这两个被lokap的朋友的确出去逛街很久了，一整天了，竟然还没回来，朋友们当然会担心。

跟两个朋友去到警察局，警察在那里卖关子。问他E和S是不是在一起？他们犯了什么法？几点释放？什么都说无可奉告。急死人了！

最后，那群朋友竟然一大班人来。八个人乘两辆cab来。还问需不需要叫男生来？男生来就会比较有用吗？他们可以帮什么？女生难道凡事都比男生差？凡事都要靠男生？这么多人来干什么？凑热闹吗？很风光吗？是律师吗？可以帮忙吗？结果一堆人在那里忙进忙去。最后越叫越多人来。超过十个人在警察局那里等。=.=" 连师姐也叫来。。无语。。怕全世界不知道吗？还有心情在那里讨论哪个警察帅。。=.="

等了好久，终于放人了。两个朋友笑着走出来。原来他们在某某著名商店购物时，行为上引起一些不必要的误会，人家以为他们偷窃，硬是要他们承认。=.=" 其实一切只是误会而已。。外国人有时还蛮不讲理的，还对亚洲人有偏见，有先入为主的负面观念。有时觉得身在异乡还真的不容易，若被当作二等公民就更加糟糕。幸亏警察局的人对他们还很友善，有基本人权。。可以要求律师、翻译员，以及电联家人或朋友。虽然他们真的被关在cell里，真的好像坐牢一样，周围都是墙壁，隔壁还有自虐倾向的男囚，牢房还有血迹，但是警察对他们还算很友善，“笑笑口”的。。朋友说他们还真的准备了牢房典型的“咖喱饭”给他们吃，还问他们要喝咖啡或茶，牢房里还有service的“按键电铃”，服务和反应超快。服务竟然如此周到，大马都还没有这个水准。

折腾了我的心灵，很累一下，因为我还没吃晚餐就出去了。还花了搭cab的钱。。但是却换来了朋友的“不屑”。没有恶意，但却问为什么我告诉这么多人，他们有责怪的语气，让我很不是滋味。我只是告诉她的两个好友，不然我一个人要怎样搞定？而且那一窝蜂的那群人不是我叫来的。只有两、三个人是他们刚好经过，问我。。我才无意中透露。。不然我怎么会无端端吃饱撑着告诉别人吗？被警察扣留是很光荣的事吗？更何况他们是E的好朋友。。谁会想那么多？真是好心没好报。我为你担心到整个人都发抖了，呼吸都没办法平复，差点还脚软，饭也没吃，还花钱叫cab去警察局。。换来竟然是这样的东西。。就不能想想别人的担心吗？

我知道你要面子，怕这件事影响名誉，不过不用怕，你清者自清！警察都释放你们了，都说是误会了嘛！何况，那堆人又不是我叫来的。是他们自己来凑热闹的啊！怎么怪到我身上来？本来是不关我的事，我本来应该是开开心心在上网的，却因为接了这通什么鬼“烂电话”，惹到自己这样。早知道就不接算了，不用理你算了，反正你都不会珍惜。感激没有也就算了，却还隐约责备。最搞笑的是你被lokap后，第一个竟然是通知在大马的男朋友？你难道不知道远水救不了近火吗？当然是通知英国的朋友啊！就算是通知大马亲友也是先通知父母吧？真是印证了一句话，女大不中留，留来留去留成仇（愁）！父母把你养这么大，你在紧要关头第一个想到的竟然是---男朋友？？！！悲。。

今晚的消息听说很快就传开了，大家不愧是读mass comm的。。传播消息的速度还蛮令人敬佩的!简直是毛骨悚然！谁还敢让你们知道一丁点秘密？让你们知道等于让全世界知道吧？我出自好意，结果到头来好像变成“千古罪人”一样，让你们说得好像我是那个传播消息的人一样。。=.=" 算了，我无语。。我没事也没这么得空作“八婆”。虽然你们并没有说的那么严重，不过我感到那个责怪的成分出现，突然觉得我的担心好像很无谓一样，我还是有一点在意。早知道就不管你了，当作没事发生。

现在你没事发生，被警察释放，当然是说风凉话，说什么很后悔叫警察通知我，搞到现在这样，说什么早知道通知Y也不要通知我。好啊，那干吗叫警察通知我呢？有本事就不要通知嘛！以为我很想收到如此“惊讶”的电话吗？省得我还要“白”跑一趟。说话这么没有余地，如果有一天真的发生事情需要帮忙时，你还会这么说吗？所以咯，有时说话要为自己留余地，不要说过头了，不要太绝。因为凡事都有可能发生。

D也是的。听得出她含有责怪的语气，虽然是没有怎么样。还说什么这样是不能成大事？那么就是暗示你自己可以成什么大事？立什么大业了咯？例如？？

你们有时还真是缺乏团体精神。。总是喜欢自己悄悄解决，有事需要帮忙也不愿意求助。需要这么拒人于千里之外吗？

我再一次无语。。

享受独处时光

有些人总是害怕寂寞，害怕什么事都是一个人。但是，我觉得偶尔可以一个人走走逛逛，呼吸自己的空气，那也未尝不是一件好事啊！

喜欢偶尔一个人发呆，一个人逛街血拚，一个人听自己的歌曲音乐，一个人品食，一个人走在无人认识我的英国街道上，一个人呼吸清新的空气，一个人沉思。。

然而，这些事情只要偶尔“一个人”就好。不可以时常这样，人毕竟是群体的动物。。 我还是会有害怕寂寞的时候，真是脆弱。。无奈。。~~

还有就是，我。。毕竟还是害怕别人的异样眼光。。还有，一个人的话，到底要向左走，还是向右走呢？突然很想把前方的遥遥路途给它瞧个清楚。。

今天的心情。。很多“突然”。。

今天心情超down，超烦躁。。一直觉得很不耐烦。。突然觉得对某些事情觉得很遗憾，很后悔。不知道，总之心情就是乱糟糟的一团，理也理不清。。只好继续让它乱下去。。

很想用歌曲来麻醉自己，突然觉得身边的一切都变了，不像之前那样，不能再重来。难道是自己多心了吗？不晓得，也不想知道。

突然觉得有些人真的是“有够贱”的。就是喜欢得罪人，就是喜欢批评人。奈他们不何，那就随他们去吧！

想要把心情弄成像这碗面一样，这是今天我煮的面，好吃。。^o^ 肉归肉，菜归菜，面归面。这样就简单多了，不然参杂在一起，还真是有够烦的！！

今天的心情指数： *
今天的心情颜色： 黑 + 白 = 灰
今天想念的人物： 自己
今天喜欢的味道： 甜
今天想去的地方： 孤岛
今天讨厌的人物： 人 （尤其是嘴巴贱的、迷糊的、扰人的、无聊的、炫耀的。。全部给我滚开！！）
今天想做的活动： 呆在房里闷着自己、听歌、看戏、聊心事、找人陪、逛街、大血拚（买！买！买！）
今天忧郁的导因： 几个（主要原因不得而知）
今天想要看见的： 狗狗
今天想要抱着的： 狗狗
今天想吃的食物： 胃口还好而已。。不饿。。不过可以每样食物来一些。。
今天想做的运动： YOGA
今天想听的歌曲： When You Are Gone (by Avril Lavigne)
今天想听的音乐： Romance de Amour
今天心情的最佳形容词： SHIT

一代风华美女

古人常说“红颜薄命”，自古以来美女就像玫瑰一样，人人见了它都想要碰碰它，捏捏它，最后把一个好好的它给毁了。

王祖贤可谓是一代风华美女，样子甜美，有一副惹人怜爱的模样，眼神时不时流露出心事重重的样子。可惜几段感情都未能开花结果。她曾经是多少男人的梦中情人，女人羡慕的对象。如今却传出她在隐居的加拿大西部削发为尼，让人感慨，也让人唏嘘。当然，事情的真假还有待查实。

有人说，王祖贤的出家是因为凡尘已尽。也有人说是因为与林建岳的感情遭受打击，被林建岳母亲的一句狠话伤了自尊心，毁了形象与前途，让她甘心隐居加拿大，从此息影。当然，也有人说她与齐秦的感情让她看破红尘，让她一心向佛，细心专研佛法，最后遁入空门。

无论如何，她仍是很多人心中的一代巨星，毕竟“倩女幽魂”的形象深入人心。她的事迹不禁令人想起了多名女星的悲惨情史，让人倍感心酸。

王祖贤与Michael Jackson都离开了娱乐圈，只是用了不同的方式而已。。

无论消息是真是假，祝福王祖贤一生平安、幸福、快乐。。

Identity

Sunny day
Exciting one

Cloudy day
Emotional one

Rainy day
Unpredictable one

Mixing up all the days
The feeling is no longer pure as the origin
Keep crawling into the inner heart
Keep hitting the inner sense
Keep reminding the nature identity
The identity that we should never forget WHO WE ARE

UK life (2nd month)

Watched a movie from the internet before. A movie called "Marley and Me". Quite a touching one. The story goes around the Labrado puppy called "Marley" until it dies at an older age. It is so cute although it is pretty naughty. I like puppies and this is the reason why these kind of movies can grab my attention. Feel happy to see puppies walk around on the street like what I have experienced now. Everyday walking to my campus would be able to see a lot of puppies or doggies hanging around with their owners. Westerners are really the animals' lovers!! Is part of their family member as well. Sometimes I feel that doggy is really a loyal friend, it would never betray you no matter you are rich or poor, smart or stupid, pretty or ugly. Isn't it?? Haha.. This is the message that I have learnt from the movie "Marley and Me".


Feel glad to hear that the people here is very emphasize on their statutory rights, as well as human rights. You have the chance to ask for the return money as long as you are not satisfy with the products. Is not same as Malaysia system "goods that being sold is not returnable or no money can be refund". Here, if you try the clothes at home and you feel that it makes you feel uncomfortable, you can REFUND your money. If you found that your pot is rusty, REFUND! If you bought a perfume here and saw another same perfume at another shop with lower price, you can REFUND money from the previous shop. EASY ya??!! haha...I never try this but my friends did. It really works.


Recently the weather at Liverpool is no longer sunny days as before. It turns back to the unpredictable one. Always rain + strong wind, and the weather is quite COLD. Freezing sometimes. We are getting familiar with the cultures and life here. I feel that this is my second home. I used to see a lot Westerners walk around me and greet me. I wonder would it be another time of "cultural shock" when I back to Malaysia? haha..Because I started to be familiar here which might makes me to feel uncomfortable with Malaysia culture. Western country is really different. I would not want to comment more until you find your answer here. If not, people might say that I am admiring Western culture. Haha..


I have booked my Europe trip yesterday. Wow, would be going to Belgium, France, Germany, Luxembourg, and Switzerland after my studies. Will start the journey from London with friends. Hehe... Feeling excited to see snow at Swiss mountain. I want to touch the snow, want to feel it. Haha..

Suddenly think of the seriousness of the H1N1 in UK, especially England. News said that the UK government has given up on this issue because H1N1 turns into uncontrollable situation. Sounds scary. I should wear mask on the day at Manchester Airport flying back to Malaysia and also throughout the flight because the flight mix up all kind of passengers from different nations!! (If the situation is still serious in September). According to the news, UK government officer claimed that H1N1 cases would increase into 100, 000 people PER DAY in UK next month. Until now, the spreading speed for H1N1 in UK is the fastest within the world. However, I haven't seen anyone wearing mask around. Everyone just act nothing and still enjoying their life and gather at crowded places. The news did not frighten them while they are still keen on outgoing activities everyday. Cool act!! =.="


As time goes by, we are soon getting on the right track regarding our studies. Communucating with Western lecturers is a fun and exciting task since they are so helpful and kind. Feel glad to interact with them since their English accent is getting more and more understandable to us!! Cheers!! ^o^

最后一次

在我最后一次
闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千言万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力
不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去


先走了
去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出
等不到天亮
所有回忆抹去却并不容易
生死由天决定
不要太伤心


在我最后一次
闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千言万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力
不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去


在我最后一次
闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千言万语没说给你听
我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我永远爱你


P/S： 不管故事是真是假，它毕竟是一首好歌，感动一下下，赞！！朋友们不妨上网听听这首感动人心的歌。。

谜题

冷冷的
热热的
冷冷的
热热的
总是那样地重复着


它是不能再循环的
不同的人在不同的时间相遇
故事永远都会是不同的
如果一切可以重来
任何故事都可以被改写


原来
时机永远是最关键的一环
它仿佛注定了一切
由不得你说“不”的一切


情
它是人生中最困难的考题

累，让人迷茫

疲累的心

承受不起忽冷忽热的感应

偶尔想要放逐自己

到另一片天空

一处无人知晓的天空

睡了又醒

醒了又睡的时光

未免有些庸俗

终日不知是为了什么而忙

却总是逃不开忙忙碌碌的生涯

却也终究熬过了超过二十个年头

是的

熬过了

却也真的。。累了

怨

把我放开吧

不要再让我难受

不要再让我压力

你真的很无理取闹

真的很不可理喻

真的很幼稚、很小孩

真的、真的。。很。。令人懊恼

尝试独立吧

别再做小孩了

比我年长

却什么小事都要依靠别人

难道说只有你需要做东西

别人就不用做了吗

别再自私了

真的让我很懊恼

很无奈

有事求人却对人大小声

处处摆出不耐烦的样子

难道你以为自己是王子、公主吗

问了东西又不相信

问来干嘛

还要在那里“训话”

那就别问

常常把烦恼挂在嘴边

我“晴朗”的心情都快被你弄糟了

跟你一起只有一个形容词

压力。。

飞

痴痴地等
痴痴地盼
盼到天长地久
盼到地老天荒
什么诺言都已变得不真实
它只是一种谎言
一种让人甘心变成白痴的谎言

忽冷忽热地
飘飘渺渺地
浑浑噩噩地
天空曾几何时变得不再绚丽
让人忘却了曾经的好
曾经期待的心境
也是曾经追寻的梦境

想要变成小鸟那样
不再为世间的烦恼与枷锁困扰
永远自由自在地
不理会世俗的眼光
永远永远
醉倒在自己的梦里
让自己的翅膀带着自己疲累的身躯
飞到天荒地老
飞到海枯石烂

好吃。。好吃。。

听了朋友们说这里 TESCO 的 custard doughnuts 很好吃，昨天去买了两包，呵呵。。两包才卖一英镑。。真的很好吃。。里面的custard流着出来，香香的。。doughnuts 松松软软的。。吃这个的时候让我想起 MID VALLEY 的 cream puffs。。哈哈。。之前没想到 TESCO brand 的食物还不错下。。

不知道马来西亚的 TESCO brand 食物和英国这里的一样吗?英国的 TESCO brand 还不赖耶！个个朋友都还蛮喜欢。便宜又好吃（比其他牌子便宜咯）。算英镑咧，省一省吧！每个学生在这里都尝试了很多 TESCO 的食物。大家都瞬间变成了 TESCO supporters。哈哈。。买它的鸡蛋，牛油，芝士，面包，水果，蔬菜，意大利面，乳酸菌，芘萨，雪糕，薯条，香肠，还有很多很多。。都还蛮可以吃的。。

突然想念很多马来西亚的食物。。

critical moment is coming..!! Mr. Assignments is dating me..

Rushing assignments during weekend, especially on Sunday. I feel that the first month in UK is nothing much, the real critical moment is just begin now!! Ya, assignmentssssssssssss are chasing me and cause me to dream of the strict lecturer. Suffering moments..!!

Roughly every weeks, even everyday got certain assignments to rush. The time is so pack. Somemore still have to read so many long long articles before attending classes. Wah, we are not the classic superman or superwoman!! We are not considered as too "last minute" because once the assignments have been distributed, it never goes far from the deadlines.

The assignmentsssssss are not an easy task, it really kills brain cells... SERIOUS!! All kinds of blurring questions, topics, areas, or even lecture and lecture notes. Really need time to absorb and figure out. Need time to get more extra readings and information as well. Really really tired.. T.T Somemore the works are packed into the same moment. How to finish at once??

Just now rushing assignments until 12am something, suddenly found that I still remember the feeling of "hungry". Forgot to take dinner, or I should say I got no time to eat. I was just focusing on my laptop for the whole day and keep on typing... typing.. Father always asks me how come I can type so fast? Don't know.. you type slower jek..I am not very fast also.. =.=" exaggerate.. get trained maybe?? always type...type...type...

My friend from another block which also rushing assignment urged me to eat the instant rice. Keep msn me and ask me eat. No choice, didn't take dinner yet, and is really damn hungry. Take a small bowl of meal. So late already, dare not eat too much, drink more water lo..hehe..

Mr. Assignments is dating me for this whole week.. Fully booked..Nice to meet you ya =.="

Monday dating with Mr. Media Business
Tuesday dating with Mr. Hollywood and Genre
Wednesday dating with Mr. Travel and Mr. Mass Comm Project
Thursday dating with Mr. Representations
Weekend dating with next week Mr. Assignment's best friend, the so called Mr. Deadlines...(still got many coming deadlines..faint.. =.=" ) and I suddenly think of this week interview with lecturer =.="

Last week heard my coursemate cum flatmate said that the other gang of flatmates (Commerce girls) are weird and ego. This morning I really experienced the weird situation. I went to the kitchen and cook, saw one of them coming into the kitchen. I was smiling to her and great her HI or HELLO, she glanced at me a while and act nothing, then continue her things. No response at all.. apa ini.. =.=" then we remained in the kitchen, I was doing my things while she was doing her things. Remain silent and no interaction at all. I was the one who giving out ONE WAY communication at the beginning. Damn awkward.

Hey, Commerce leh, should be very communicative. How come act like anti-social leh?? Smile and say HI are very common leh.. should give response leh.. this is basic way to be polite leh.. aiyer, university student already, how come TARC never teach you the skills to interact?? We staying in the same unit, you cant just act like this for these few months, right? ish... =.="

喘不过气来

谢谢大家的生日祝福，谢谢昨天朋友们的心意。。虽然很简单，但是很开心。。哈哈。。

奈何，我的生日竟然伴随着无限的担忧与压力，真的很难熬，很压力，喘不过气来。。这个学位还真的不容易。。功课一堆一堆，好像永远做不完一样。。梦魔啊！！救命！！睡觉也不得安宁。。现在是英国时间大约早上六点半。。刚刚半夜天还没亮时（估计大约凌晨两、三点），我迷迷糊糊醒了一下，看了看窗口。。黑黑的。。又到回去继续睡。。因为四点多已经有阳光了。。所以我想应该还早吧！

结果刚刚早上六点就起床，简直是不能再睡下去了。昨晚做梦了，连做梦也梦见他！！你真是我的梦魔，让我读书读到好辛苦。。不只是我，连朋友们都觉得见到你就很压力！！大家都在倒数回家的日子。。=.=" 哭。。。 T.T 现在连睡觉也会吓醒。。

birthday dinner

First time having my birthday in UK. Sounds not bad.. Receive wishes from family and friends. A great warm one. Especially my M2 gang still remember to celebrate for me. A warm and touching one!! Ooh, cake! A nice one. Before this, I never think that I have a chance to eat a piece of birthday cake in UK. I wish I have it. Ya, I really have it finally!

Ooh, my God, is the lemon flavour, I LOVE that..!! I hope I can remember the taste forever and the meaning behind it. I like the drawing on the windows too!!

Thanks for my dear friends..Thanks! Muacksszzz.... ^o^

光阴飞逝，岁月半点不留人

一眨眼，不知不觉在英国已经待了将近一个月。原来光阴真的是半点不留人。很快的，不久的将来，又是回家的时刻了。

心情有时候变得很矛盾，一方面倒数着回家的日子，因为想念家人和食物。大家都是忙碌的学生，又怎么可能费时准备好吃点的食物呢？哈哈。。通常随随便便就是一餐了。。而且来这里是承受课业上的压力，又不是单纯来旅行，也难怪想快点毕业回家了。最近真的是一步一步走向越来越忙碌的日子了。东西永远像一堆山似的，不知道何年何月才可以完全把它完成似的！

可是，一方面又可能会很怀念这里自由自在及到处游荡的日子。毕竟这次可能是人生中最后一次当学生了。以后将开始另一段为老板做牛做马的日子了。哈哈。。

慢慢体会到自己不再是小孩了，心境要变得成熟些，不能再自私地耍小孩脾气了。。哈哈。。怀念一下下。。过了后天的生日，心力路程又多了一些些。。生日曾经是每个小孩最期待的日子之一，但是人长大之后，原来生日可以变得那么“无所谓”。。祝我自己生日快乐吧！^o^

最近上网找了一些相关公司的资料，发了很多封电邮给不同的公司，为毕业后的工作日子筹备筹备。现在只是希望一毕业就能找到理想的工作。。但愿如此。。

sunny day

Freezing for quite a long time in UK. Especially the day we went to Manchester city. Wow, strong wind + cold weather.. Cannot imagine how come UK summer is such a freezing one. How they survive during winter time? Should have a portable heater huh? haha..no wonder Westerners like the bright sun so so much. I still remember the strong wind make us feeling "flying in the air".

Finally, today is quite a sunny one. No more feeling too cold although the temperature still low. Hopefully this kind of weather can stay a bit more longer. Who knows the afternoon had a sudden rain. What an unpredictable weather at Liverpool! Hopefully my mood and emotions would not change to be so sudden and so unpredictable.

Some of the lecturers' heavy English accent is still a nightmare for us. Ya, including me and my friends. Luckily some is still consider OK. One of the lecturers is the hardest to be understand. I wonder whether he is coming from Scotland. But he is the most handsome one. Haha..especially when he is smiling, is very very "sunny". Ya, sunny as today's weather.

As I know, Scottish's English is quite hard to be understand. God bless me!

黑色星期一

心情灰灰的，黑黑的。。全course的人都被吓了一吓。。原来大家还是会忧虑的。。大老远飞来这里不过就是为了一张“沙纸”，为什么还要这样吓唬我们，心脏快要不能负荷了。这样不是在激励我们，反而让我们精神紧张。

大学生了，还要被当作小学生看待。真是一群可怜的东西！人类都是一群可怜的动物，站在各自的岗位，各有各的任务，身不由己！

下午的午餐只煮了一碗热呼呼的紫菜蔬菜汤，喝了觉得暖暖的，好像可以镇定心情一样。过后又有一样令人心情酸酸的事情。真是一波未平，一波又起！搞得今天心情糟糟的！虽然不是什么大不了的事，可是心情还是一再地觉得伤伤的。看开点吧!

是我太看重了吗？还是别人太没有心了？我不知道，也不想知道了。答案似乎变得不太重要，重要的是如何做好自己。

累累的。。生活开始进入“忙碌”状态，没有心情管别的了。。课业忙碌，欧洲旅行又还没有决定。。一切都还在摸索状态。。希望可以快点上轨道。。

刚刚不小心睡着了一下，又要爬起来准备明天的课。。朋友突然打电话问我要不要去看“脱衣秀”。。看了看时间，很夜了，又累又不清醒。。刚开始时，我连电话都说得迷迷糊糊的。下次有机会再去吧！

祝福所有的朋友，希望大家平平安安过完这几个月，大家顺利毕业吧！神啊，保佑我们！

Manchester United - The Old Trafford

Wow, never think that I will visit any football stadiums. Hmm, because I am not a die hard fans of any football teams..haha...However, Old Trafford is quite a nice one. Yup, never regret to go once although I am not totally understand what is happening regarding football. Haha...

At least, I can feel the spirit of being a successful football player. The players are struggling like us. They need to put effort in order to obtain fame. Sounds similar with us. We are the students who struggling to put effort in order to get a good result. Although sometimes it is a little bit suffer. So, motivation is a MUST!

Time is passing very fast. Hope everything will be going smoothly and finally end my study life very soon. Sometimes, I feel so tired because I realise that we have study for nearly 20 years. Quite a significant part of our life.

Cheers for every football players. Cheers for MU, cheers for Liverpool, cheers for every students.. CHEERS!!!

掉入英国的梦境

在英国逗留了第七天，偶尔还会觉得自己在英国的梦境里游荡。

喜欢这里的气候，喜欢这里的环境，喜欢这里的建筑物，喜欢这里的街道，喜欢这里的空气，喜欢这里人的亲切感，喜欢这里绿油油的草地，喜欢这里的一草一树。。喜欢一切一切。。随手乱拍的照片都有可能变成一幅画。。

很多朋友把这里赞得天上有，地上无。难道真的是“外国月亮比较圆”？？难怪这么多大马人出国后就不想回国了。。哈哈。。大马，你要加油才行啊！难怪我飞之前，阿姨打电话给我，叮咛我记得要想家。。有啦，有啦。。当然会想家，还有食物？？呵呵。。

每天从宿舍走路去上课竟然要一个小时左右？？好吧，当作是群体晨运咯！在这里我做最多的活动就是走路，走啊。。走啊。。走走走。。除了走还是走。。把我可怜的双脚累垮了。。惜惜。。每天都很累，就像打完仗一样。每次走回家的路程都是半昏迷状态。。晕！ =.=" 因为这几天从早到晚在外面乱逛。。哈哈。。用脚走路的。。不累才怪

早上有大太阳哦，还好气温是冷冷凉凉的，不会流汗。。可是晚上冷到要命。。寒风吹进骨子里。。

突然很想念学院的一位朋友，很遗憾在英国的日子里没有她的陪伴。但愿她一切安好！不过幸亏还有一群可爱的朋友在身旁。

早上四点多就惊醒了。。我每次清晨被英国的阳光骗了。。才四、五点大太阳已经高高挂，还很普照，光线蛮强的。。我还以为睡迟了。。然后又回去睡。。朋友们都是这样。。哈哈。。再这样下去会不会神经衰弱？？呵呵。。开玩笑。。^o^ 早餐吃 milk + cornflakes ，够营养吧？嘻嘻。。

迎新会把我们的视线拉回课业上，好像还没有mood要上课，是时候把心情收拾一下。希望快点把学业完成，快点寻找未来的方向。失去方向感的我实在是超级没有安全感。。忧哉 =.=”

Preparation before flying to UK

Crazy...crazy...!!! Still left another few more days before flying to UK, but I haven't finish preparing all my stuffs. I'm just half way on doing everything, including my luggage and bla bla bla. I not even take my air ticket yet! Err, what else??!! Ya, my ISC card, insurance card...bla bla bla...What else??!! Err, still need some shoppings la! Still need to buy something. Err, still got many things haven't do yet!! Pathetic.. Recently spent a lot of money. WuWu T_T

Is very hard to pack the luggage. Do not really know what to pack and what not to pack. Although seniors did recommend to us, we still need to modify it based on own style. HaHa.. I know I'm keep packing and unpacking my things. HaHa.. Sounds a bit funny. Discussed with friends before, some friends seen bringing a lot of food stuffs..Fuyoh!! Maybe got food festival in their room?? HeHe.. I hope to join then.

Pounds seens keep increasing. Oh my God!! Please, don't increase now! Regarding the weather, different people are giving different descriptions. Err, so how is it actually? Erm, well, I think I should take risk and find it out myself. Cham lor, don't know my jackets enough to survive at Liverpool or not??

My aunt will be flying to New York very soon. Yesterday reached my house and will stay until she flies. Wow, she has some vitamins with her to keep her a healthy body before flying. HaHa.. And she did share her vitamins with me to prevent flu. Everyone also scare of H1N1 already. Today went shopping with aunt and mom, wah, every pharmacy also out of stock for the mask N95..Since my aunt asked me to eat her vitamins, then I just followed lo. HaHa..

Hopefully everything will be fine very soon. Liverpool, I'm coming to you. I know I would be started to feel exciting once I reach KLIA this coming Thursday. I want to breathe the fresh air in Manchster, Liverpool, and many many more..Wahahaha... Cheers ^o^

Eat vitamins to prevent flu??